It's been a while

since I've been genuinely happy around you. When you're around, I feel so much pain, and everything that happened in the past comes rushing back. You don't understand how I feel. I mean, when you're around, I'm always laughing and smiling, but to be honest, I'm smiling to let you know that I've been fine without you - to let you know I've been strong and you have not affected me. However, we all know that's far from the truth.