It's gone.

I felt like adding another blog, just to feel. Yes, I feel that I'm going overly cliche, but I need a moment today. I miss what I had, I took it for granted, but now it's gone. Must I add details? I don't think so. I'm gonna sound selfish, but I hate to see people happy when I'm not. Honestly, I'd trade my happiness for anyone else's. I'm a motherfucking selfish hoe. I don't mind admiting so. I'm fine the way I am. Somehow, I have the worst feeling that I'm going to die alone. Actually, a feeling that might come true. I don't know, it's a gut feeling. Most of the time, my gut is correct. I don't wanna die either, but death is inevitable. I'm afraid to die. I wish to have experience all before I go, but choices are limited. I want a full life, one that was worthing living. Not one that way passing by the through the day. I had an overall great day with my DV2EMS girls, but as night falls, so does the sorrow. I'm experiencing this feeling that makes me wanna write poems. How peculiar...

Sincerely,
Diane Ho

Another night, another chapter, a new beginning, a new love.