I hate you.

I'm feeling a cloud of hatred hang over me again. I've been in a particularly gloomy mood nowadays. I have a feeling I wanna jump this one particular boy, he makes me wanna hit him. I think now I know how girls can be so-serious about a boy. I never really knew. Cause honestly, I'm never serious about anyone. His face makes me go ... EW. Like, without any exaggeration whatsoever. Stupid hugeass pig face manwhore. Yes, I went there and it feels GREAT. I honestly don't know if my best friend is my best friend. She seems like she doesn't even care about me as much as my other ... friend. I'm PSYCHED. Monique and I are gonna get hand sanitizers -silently laughs at myself-. I feel so retarded, it's pretty funny. I'm feeling ok today. My thoughts seem to be clouded. I really hate him, but I can't even stay away from him if I tried. I don't like him him though, he's a friend, but I'm not sure if I can even trust him anymore. I hate him. I really hate him for pulling in victims. Although I had no intentions of returning affection, I wished he would've actually been DETERMINED and held on a little longer. You know, a little hope for those boys. :D However, I've lost my hope in boys. For once in forever, I don't like anyone. HORRAY. I'm losing grasp of those around me. For once, I don't care anymore cause I think I'm gonna focus on my life. :D I'm happy.

The Murder

His grasps his victims
One by one
Process by process

They all fall
His sweet words
His affection for the desperate

Desperation for love
They fall
One by one

Victim by victim
They all break
Victims of the broken

His sins left in tradgedy
He leaves them in his past
Forgotten and trashed

As if they didn't matter
He didn't strike the ugly
He striked the beautiful

Leaving them clinging for their breath
Leaving them with nothing but hearts
Holes, small holes in their hearts

Self destruction
Fallen too deep
Can't seem to climb out

And one by one
He sends them to their graves
Scarred, unloved

No time to regret
No time to love
Those mourning their death

The death of their hearts
The death of their love
Never to be