drama, drama, drama, fucking go away.

There's 3 things I learned today:
#1 REAL friends will be by your side NO MATTER WHAT.
#2 sisters over misters saying is just BULLSHIT.
#3 trust NO ONE until they have proved to you their trust.

So all in one night, I believe I lost my best friend, a close friend, and all the trust I have for humankind. I couldn't but break into tears at the thought of me being the cause of this. I didn't understand the power of the words a person could unleash. I believe you could say I'm a child. I'm learning so much about trust and that love is not definite. The love I have for my best friend is a lot. She means the world to me, but suddenly today, she tells me that I should stop my bitching. Yes, it hurts. This PERSON came along and ruined my life. I don't know what/how life would be like without them, but I wish they would disappear out of it. I thought that trust was definite, and that promises meant PROMISE, an unbroken saying. One that only the devil himself may break, but I am a naive child. I thought a lot of things, or rather, I think A LOT of things. I find that friendship is merely a bond to keep you from the loneliness you may come across in a lifetime. Blogging makes me feel much better, to let out what I cannot say, but I know that my problems won't go away just because I feel better about myself. Yes, some part of this is my fault, but I had no idea of what the consequences would be. Frankly, I didn't even say much. That MANHOE made a mountain out of a molehill, and I hate him for it. I hope he burns. I trusted him, and obviously, as you know by now, my last thought is I hope he DIES. Then after this, I will erase him out of my life. I'm cold, yes, so I've been told, but I don't mind. If he feels he can be the way he is now, I have a right to being a bitch to him. I hate him, that's that. I don't wanna lose my best friend though, and I wish I didn't have to, but things change.

Sincerely,
Diane Ho