I Know

I know I'm being played - not for a fact, but vaguely.
People don't change, and seeing as you are who you are,
I should probably stay away from you.
That being said, I tried.
It's not going to work; I know I'm heading straight for destruction by getting into this.
But whatever. You're worth the pain.
I don't know who I am anymore.
Is this still me?

I would say this is the equivalent of commit suicide.