Is There A Huge Red Stain On My Ass?

I'm beginning to feel some joy after today cause The Block had many, many, "people".
Beautiful to be exact, so fuck Bella Terra, the stupidest place ever. Speaking of Bella Terra, so many little kids and their stupid drama. :/

SO YEAH, bye? ;D

SIGH

So yeah, you were on today and as usual I sat and stared at the "online now". Was it something I did wrong to make you run & hide? I know that you and I are not supposed to work out and shit like that and I don't even want us to like, be a thing, but I wouldn't even mind it at all if you know, you just TALKED TO ME. Telling me "what's up" and crap. But no, not a single word from you. A simple "hello" would be able to brighten my day also, but it's like you would ever do that would you? I fear a lot of things are going wrong and they are. How did they even go wrong though? We started out on the right foot but started going down the wrong path. So tell me, are we even friends? Or are we gonna keep playing the cat & mouse game? Cause I'm down for it. There's so much I'd like to say to you every time I see you, but I can't, and it somewhat pains me to just try and pass by without even glancing at you cause I know you don't even care. Don't stop me in trying to get whatever I want. I will fight my way to get into your heart. You just watch.

Suddenly, I feel that anger that rushing inside me. It's somehow destroying my joy.

but anyway, JUST SMILE.

Sincerely,
Diane Ho

Morning

I'm so sleepy even though I woke up nearly an hour ago.
Not much to think about today.


ANYWAY, this is for you JV.

You're a player
Always like the others

Your words of affectionate
No, they just don't do
You don't realize what you do

You crush your girls
Like they're worthless

You don't take time to understand
Time to realize what you've done

You bend the girls
You break your words

You don't mean what you say
So why don't you just dig a hole
Then go die in it player


hahahaha. :D I liked the ending, don't you?

Optimistic.

I woke up today with a strange sense of optimism-strangely.
When am I ever optimistic you ask?
I don't know, but at the end of the school year all my teachers
had written, "I enjoyed your sense of optimism and joy you spread
in my classroom," am I proud of myself? As a matter of fact, I am.
So today I hope to see Elmo-HOPE.
I'm tired, but I have an urge to just get out of bed and knock on his
door.

BUT ANYWAY, I don't have much to say.
So, til next time!

Sincerely,
Diane Ho

Welcome Back.

Err, It's been long since I've blogged, and I couldn't be happier.
It's time I let myself out of the nutshell I've been put in.
So guess what? HE came back and as usual, acted as if my existence
was of no concern. So guess what? You can kiss my ass goodbye because
I do not care about you anymore. You are but a mere pest to me who
takes up air supply.

Then there's Elmo, a sweet, handsome, fun-loving guy whom I know
nothing of. Isn't it ironic? I've created an alternate Elmo who obviously,
does not have a realistic personality. Frankly, I can't seem to understand it
myself. Anyway, all I know is he has the sweetest smile that anyone could
ever dream of.

ENOUGH DAYDREAMING, DIANE!

So yeah, that's pretty much all there is to my chain of thought today.
As a matter of fact, I don't even have a chain of thought.
It's just a thought.

Actually no, I'm starving.
That's my thought.

Until we meet again the stars will not shine and the wind will not blow.
Oh how my heart longs for thee.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Translation: I'll be back to blog. ;)

A New Beginning.

It's May First today, and I haven't blogged in forever. I think I'm not going to be blogging much now since I got a journal. I'm so happy! It's all nice and pretty :D I need to decorate it, but my printer is out of ink, and I can't draw for shit. (Laughs) Unloved seems to be coming out pretty well. I haven't lost all my feelings for ___, but I'm still trying since friendships are at stake. He stood next to me today, and I could still feel what we used to feel, but I could never do that to _______. EVER. I'm slowly forgetting him.

Sincerely,
Diane Ho

Unloved (Part 6)

James awoke to the startling sound in the living room. The sound echoed loudly off the walls and created a horrifying sound, like the sound of a dying animal. In terror, he arose from his bed and ran to the living room. On the couch was Elizabeth face planted on the arm and legs high in the air. The sound was not a dying animal, it was Elizabeth, laughing and snorting. James too, laughed at the sight. Taken by surprise, Elizabeth jumped, straightened up, and giggled to herself. "What happened to the laugh I heard before?" James managed to chuckled out, "I thought there was something dying in my living room." Elizabeth made one horrifying snort, and fell back into her previous laugh. Suddenly, there was knock on the door, and the laughter was cut short.

"Who could be com-" James grabbed Elizabeth around the mouth and carried her straight into the closet. Struggling, she managed to get out,

"James! What the hell do you think you're doing?! You-" but she was cut short again.

"Liz, you have to trust me on this, don't come out no matter what happens, and don't make a sound-promise me." James had his serious face on, and without another word, he dashed outside to the front door.

James slowly opened the door to peek. Outside, a man in black stood with a cap pulled over his face. Although it was not clear, James could recognize him. This man was a faint memory-even if his identity did not come clear to James. "Yes, is there anything you need sir?" James peered out, making sure to not startle the stranger with his scarred face. Without a word, the man yanked James from behind the door and pushed him up again the hallway wall. When he was sure no one was sight, he began to speak.

"You $*%*^! Who do you think I am?! A dumbass? I know you called the cops on my ass since last night when I encountered that girlfriend of yours!" the words seemed to echo down the hall violently.

"I have no idea what the hell you're talking about, but I do not have a girlfriend. You're out of your mind!" he stopped to breathe, "You're absolutely insane! Leave before I call the police on you!" James was horrified. Although he wasn't too satisfied with life, he didn't want to die that way. Afterall, Melody's murderer was still on the loose.

"Playing the cops card?! That's nice. I'll be back, and you won't be so lucky next time!" and without another word, the man ran down the hall, leaving nothing but echoes of footsteps behind him.

To be continued..