So, it's month #2 of falling head-over-heels for a stranger-sort of. How am I doing you ask? I'm fine. Sure, sometimes it hurts like hell, but then you learn to smile and just "shake it off". I'm living a lie and I'm pretty darn sure of it. My whole life began with a lie, then lead to another-and another. So I really wonder if I'm really worthy of being alive. I, myself, am not sure of the answer. I feel like I'm suffocating in an alternate universe. What has the media taught me so far? It's to follow love to extreme heights, even if it takes you beyond the clouds. Sadly, I have been failed to do so. Therefore, I feel like a pile of crap. My whole life, I've never been able to let myself go-really really let go. It's like I'm gonna burst and have multiple personality disorder or something. I'm tired of putting on a show that no one enjoys, especially myself. Then again, I can just smile and shake it off.
I'm Okay.
Diane Ho
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